Category: My Self-Awareness
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A 24-Hour Victory
I didn’t think about my mom yesterday. Today, as I was reading a book in my office, that thought crossed my mind. I hadn’t thought about my mom for a whole twenty-four hours. I never imagined a day would come when I wouldn’t think about her. The book I’m reading is called Forgiving What You Can’t… Read more
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The Life You Didn’t Plan, But Needed
Why is it that every time my period is even slightly late, I like to think I’m pregnant? It could be one day, and immediately my mind believes that I’m carrying a child. It’s like I jump to worst-case scenarios every time. One of the reasons I hate being a woman. Don’t get me wrong—I… Read more
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Sips & Slips: The Urge To Ruin It All
6/22/2024: Okay, ladies, let’s have a conversation. Why is it that when things are going so well, I want to call my ex? I mean, seriously, it’s like when everything is going so smoothly, I need to be torn down by a man…a very insignificant man. Maybe I’ll call it self-sabotage, but why can’t I… Read more
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The Need to Feel Alive
“Anything to feel alive.” The past two years, I haven’t been able to get this out of my mind. I will do absolutely anything to feel alive… whether it be standing on the edge or swimming in the ocean in the middle of the night. Because, why the hell not? But I can’t help but… Read more
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Quieting the World: 24-Hours Without a Phone
Today, I woke up and dreaded existence the moment I picked up my phone. So, I turned it off. It’s been off since 7 a.m., and I refuse to turn it back on until at least 9 a.m. tomorrow when this post is made. I even went as far as logging out of my iMessages… Read more
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Lighter Steps, Heavier Realizations: A Hike That Exposed My Inner Struggles
9/29/2024: I went on a hike today. This was one of the hardest hikes you can do in Acadia National Park, and I will attest that it is a very difficult hike. Not only physically demanding, but my fear of heights was kicking my ass as we were approaching the top. Two of my friends… Read more