Category: My Self-Awareness
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Slipping, Suffering, and Sprinting to the Finish
12/8/2024: I ran my second half marathon this weekend in Millinocket, Maine. It was hell on earth. I signed up on a whim and ran it with zero to little training. The most preparation I did for the run was run a mile everyday for about a month and even then, I still skipped a… Read more
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Healing Through Tears: Finding Freedom in Softness
11/28/2024: I’ve cried more this year than I have in my entire life. I cried half-way to the top of Cadillac Mountain today while staring off into the ocean, while hearing “I’m not that girl” from the Wicked movie, and finally on my drive home in a snow storm. I was never much of a… Read more
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Even Though I Don’t Know Where I’m Going…
I ran 3 miles today and it absolutely sucked, but I did it anyway. Because sometimes life sucks, you want to give up, and think nothing will get better, but that doesn’t mean I can’t do hard things. These past few months have sucked as a whole, and I stopped exercising and caring for myself.… Read more
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How to Start Over, Again and Again
8/20/2024: What if I told you I wasn’t doing well? What if I told you that I’ve thrown up 4 times this week? What if I told you that I don’t see myself getting better? What if I told you that I’m terrified for my well-being? I sat on my patio tonight smoking a cigarette… Read more
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Behind the Smile: The Unspoken Reality of Loneliness & Burnout
October 22, 2024: Sadly, I hate to say it, but I’m not doing well. I’ve never been so homesick in my entire life and I’ve never felt more dead on the inside. The weather gets cold, and I’m done for. I’m already wearing thermals here in Maine because mother nature decided that it should be… Read more
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F*ck Love & Body Image
About a month ago I was on a date with a man. We were sitting on his bed and he asked me what exactly I was looking for. I told him that I was looking for the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with in hopes that it ended in marriage.… Read more