AHHH MY FIRST BLOG POST!!!!! I truly didn’t think that I would start this, but here we are and I couldn’t be happier with myself. I started this blog so I could just yap to my heart’s content, but suddenly I’m at a loss of things to say. The first for many things has always been difficult for me, like introductions for papers or the first day on the job. Something about these types of things makes me hit a wall until I just have to rip the band aid off and get over myself. For example like this blog…the website for this has stayed stagnant in my browser while being fully finished…I just have to click one button to make the site live and I have yet to. Same for this post I am typing now…its currently being curated in a word document, but not on the site itself because that would be a little too serious for me…one slip of my finger this could actually be my first post, but that’s enough about my fears of launching this blog for now. Let’s talk about how I was originally going to make this blog.
When I first decide to create this space for myself, I was going to use a pen name, like Lady Whistledown for Penelope in Bridgerton and I had sat for two weeks creating the perfect name. A name that very few people would ever be able to decode if they tried hard enough. The perfect name I came up with was Emilie Mitsuki Rhymer. Emilie because it’s the name I use when someone ask for my name in any setting like a reservation or a guy at a bar I would never see again. Mitsuki for my Japanese heritage plus it translate into “beautiful moon” and I love the moon, finally Rhymer for my mother’s maiden name, but with different spelling (pretty good if you ask me). Anyways, I realized I only wanted the pen name out fear of being judged and the whole purpose of this page for me was to be vulnerable without the fear of judgment. So the pen name got thrown out the window and here I am, Yuka Kawata and I am so happy to welcome you to Yuka Yaps!